Half Way There

I realize this is a bit long, and most of you are far to busy to read all of it, so as a disclaimer, This is an encouraging update. A chance for me to share with you where all your money, prayers, love and support have been going the past (almost 2) months.  Thank you so much for the privilege of having a community, a body in christ, back home to write to. I love you, I love that your apart of all this, I love that we are all working together for God's kingdom. Your hands send my feet. Thank you for all you do in my life.

Now that I've come to the closing of week 6, I feel like I can update you all properly on the logistics, "trials", good times and what to expect next....

Walking into this, I think I put a lot of expectations on God and myself. Expectations on what i thought it meant to come back to YWAM and what this must have meant for my future.
....But the awesome thing about serving a God that loves me is the joy we have in making each other happy.
I started putting all the things God is to me, in the beginning of verses and started look harder at my life from that perspective. For example, Jeremiah 29:11
"For I the Lord (Your creator, your advocate, your protector, provider, your very best friend, your Father, Daddy, brother, Beloved, Soul mate.) Have Amazing plans for you."

When I started to break down who these people are in my life; " My Father and Best friend" I started to think how both those people in my life always want me to be happy, always want me to grow, only ever want the best for me, and think I deserve the best...when i started praying with that in my mind, I started to connect with a God who only wanted to talk to me on the most intimate level.  It's easy to see why Song of Solomon calls this "A divine romance."
All this to say, the future plans I THOUGHT I'd have at this point are not at all where I feel God leading me.
This school has, surprisingly enough, been one of the hardest things I've done in missions so far. ( I keep thinking, "Send me back to a bush in Africa!") But its also been one of the most beneficial. (I guess the hard things always are.) L God has been speaking to me so much about His heart for long term missions and what it looks like to "make His kingdom come here on earth." ....and Its not at all what I expected. Learning that pretty much everything you've been doing on the mission field for the past few years was doing more harm then help....was a tough, humbling pill to swallow.
I've been asked several times throughout the duration of this school "Why do you do what you do? What motivates you?" After trying to answer this question on my own several times (looking for something profound and inspiring) the Lord finally gave me the answer. Worship. My life is about worship, its our number one calling, that's why we were created. And by dedicating my life to missions, using the gifts God has given me, is the greatest act of worship I can ever give to my Heavenly Father.
I know I've rambled on (for years now) in my news/support letters, about how I want my life to be more then me. I want it to reflect the Christ in me and fulfill all the plans he has made me for. But I just can't get enough of thinking and writing about Him emphasising this in me. He wants all of our soul...When is the last time we lived our day in full for nothing else but to worship God? Not to feed the hungry, not to sing a song in church, but to really just bless God's heart.
I WILL get burned out if I work in missions off my own strength just to help the needy....But my passion for wanting to please God wont ever burn out if i continue to seek the Lord daily....because there is so much of him, that there will forever be a reason to be amazed.

^{Amos 5
21-24}"I can't stand your religious meetings. 

   I'm fed up with your conferences and conventions.
I want nothing to do with your religion projects, 
   your pretentious slogans and goals.
I'm sick of your fund-raising schemes, 
   your public relations and image making.
I've had all I can take of your noisy ego-music. 
   When was the last time you sang to me?
Do you know what I want? 
   I want justice—Its what my heart is full of, I want oceans of it.
I want fairness and peace—rivers of it. 
   That's what I want. That's all I want."
James 1:27
"Religion that God our Father accepts as pure and faultless is this: to look after orphans and widows in their distress {to LOVE one another} and to keep oneself from being polluted by the world."


Of course getting more spiritually fed and having deep profound thoughts, isn't all I've been doing here. We've had weeks of practical (long term) mission field work. Such as; "Water and Sanitation" (learning that the number two killer in developing countries is diarrhea which can be dimensioned by thousands if they knew how to just wash their hands properly.) Learning how to build latrines and wells. Weeks on "How to start your own NGO or come alongside an already existing." Learning how to come into communities properly, to live among them, gaining there trust. Making there struggles your struggles, their dreams, your dreams. Finally realizing, You can't change the world until you change peoples Hearts, perspectives, self worth....relationships with each other, and ultimately, God.  
SO, the plan from here? I'm not headed off to a far of place in the jungles of Africa right away. I'm going to continue to live in this new light and knowledge He has given me. I'm going to finish out the next 6 weeks strong. And as of right now,head back to the mission field at home. Purse God's heart in medical missions, understanding the spiritual root and what God has to say about diseases and sickness. Working and studying from both home and overseas (Haiti mostly). 


Please continue to stand with me in prayer for direction in missions and for God's kingdom to come here on earth, in my own heart so that I will be fully equipped for the next assignment. And Please send me prayer request and updates on your lives as well. I Love them :)


-Kourney Hetrick

"For we are God's masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago." Eph. 2:10 My Team :)

Lifting the Veil; When Helping Hurts

Its a dangerous place I'm stepping into. The farther you go with God, the deeper your responsibility and life becomes. You start to see people, creation and the whole world the way Christ intended us to see it.  And you can no longer ignore the problem.
I thought I knew a lot about missions work before I came here...I was the first to rise to occasion when the words "Orphans" or "hunger"  was mentioned. But slowly, being humbled every step of the way, I'm learning that not only do I know nothing....but the majority of the work and "help" I was giving...may have caused more damage then good.


                                                .................What I'm Learning So Far...


When Helping Hurts
Being made in God’s image, human beings are inherently relational and have a divine responsibilities to the world that the Creator left in our care.  What exactly is our responsibility after we've prayed "the sinners prayer". When does the "taking up of the cross" start? <--- these questions and comments are nothing new of course. We've all seen cries for help and been apart of an incredible plan bigger then ourselves. But here's something you may not have considered before:
What exactly is poverty? and, Is it possible that we are all living in a state of poverty?

When the question was first asked---of course I said "no". Americans are not in a state of poverty, and its insane to even try to compare us to developing countries  such as South Africa or Haiti.

But once we took a look at what the bible would define "poverty" as, I was quickly corrected. 

Like mentioned above, Being made in God’s image, human beings are inherently relational. So when we work out of the perfect combination and order of relationship...we find ourselves "poor in spirit."....and can become physically poor.

A) Relationship with God – This is our primary relationship, the other 

three relationships flowing out of this one. The Westminster Shorter 

Catechism teaches that human beings’ primary purpose is ‘to glorify 

God and to enjoy Him forever.’ This is our calling, the ultimate reason 

for which we were created.  

B) Relationship with Self – People are uniquely created in the image of 

God and thus have inherent worth and dignity. 

C) Relationship with Others – God created us to live in loving 

relationship with one another. We are not islands! 

D) Relationship with the Rest of Creation – The ‘cultural mandate’ of 

Genesis 1:28-30 teaches that God created us to be stewards, people 

who understand, subdue, and manage the world that God has 

created in order to produce bounty. 

Obviously, America, the church, and my own community lack highly in some of these areas. 

How can I even comprehend the healing of others without fulling understanding what God's intentions for His people are. 

I think in a lot of ways we tend to think that as Americans, we are the solution to all the worlds problems, and if we hop on a plane with water bottles, food and a blue print for a sustainable water well, then we've successfully checked off all the "essentials" for the trip and we're good to go. This, however, is not the case. 

The Creator calling the creation.
Real needs vs. American needs
"Stop coming into MY community and assuming YOU are the answer to all the "alleged problems."
I mean, are we even asking the community if they want...or need a well? More often then not, the answer is, no. Although its a beautiful dream and desire to bring amazing ideas, like wells, to third world countries, and some times (often even) they do need the wells. (And I am definitely not bashing anyone who has ever or will ever build a well in Africa's desert lands.) Don't misunderstand....But here's what's happening; We never took the time to become apart of the community. We didn't do life with them, and therefore have no history of there values, culture, religious views, education, etc. How do we know that after the well is built and we leave, that they aren't doing some kind of animal sacrifice to their gods in the water that completely decontaminates it, doing (in the long run) more harm then it did good. (Yes, that's an actual example.)
Lets do life with our brothers and sisters. Lets learn from them as much as we've come to teach.
Let's start at the root of the problem; Their worth, their value...their relationship with God and His creation. Doing this....could take months....even years. You have to build their trust...and make their life your life, their dreams your dreams, their problems so real to you, that you seek a solution as a community, using the resources around you. Lets show them every side of Gods heart: Physical, Spiritual, Wisdom and Social. God got his hands dirty. But he also sought the heart out. Both must become essential on the mission field. People are the worlds greatest resource <--- God says so.
Lets humble ourselves and agree we know nothing and we are nothing.


The "4 P's" to the Mission field.
Prayer ---in everything
Passion---for the community you've dedicated your time to
Perseverance---Don't limit God with a time block....real results can take years...decades and we might only be the seed. We may never see the harvest.
Patience---Wait on God's timing. And understand that trust takes time and answers will be made in God's timing. America tends to want to microwave the world. We want results instantly. 


For a long time I've said "I want to be the hands and feet of Christ." And I do...but I want much more then just the hands and feet. I want the mouth, the mind and the heart. 

1 out of 6.8 billion

         I have to be honest....although in my honesty, its important to know - YWAM is one of those places that has a way of taking you by surprise and flips all your plans up-side-down.
        Knowing I was going to be celebrating my 21st birthday away from home wasn't exactly the highlight of my going away gifts, which was why I was nearly brought to tears at the way the Lord provided so abundantly on January 11, 2012.
         I woke up to two of my (already) good friends climbing into bed with me and singing "happy birthday" at the obnoxious hour of 7am. Once they finished their (lovely, I might add) version of the classic American birthday song, they announced that it had snowed all night and the weather was continuing to blanket our campus into a beautiful winter wonderland. The Lord knows us so well :)
Snow is one of my favorite creations. The day continued on, receiving unexpected gifts....(including one from the amazing Laura Pickard...thank you!!) and other over the top blessings. Just SOME of the ways our Heavenly Father chose to dote upon me on my special day. It was really a humbling day when looking back....a simple reminder that our God sees even the little things...and takes those into account when creating the day before us.

SO far school has been about facts and figures. What to expect and just what exactly we've gotten ourselves into. The basic outline, for all those who have been asking: 


 The Community Development For Missions School is designed to equip students with the mind set and skills to bring deep and lasting transformation to hurting communities.  The foundation of the school is a biblical understanding of the root causes of poverty and our response as followers of Christ.  

During the school experienced practitioners will teach key concepts in community development and common pitfalls to avoid.  Students will be introduced to the challenges faced by people in developing countries and explore how we can best help.  A graduate of the school will be equipped with practical tools, resources and contacts to pursue their specific area of interest.

Today we talked about what exactly "Poverty" is. Why and how it happens.

We came up with several conclusions, most of which (we all agreed) is the result of a spiritual bind the enemy has over these countries. Slavery of the mind. Lack of natural resources. Lack of education. Sickness. Lack of sanitation. Greed. Laziness (expecting hand outs). Hopelessness. Slavery of a corrupt government. etc.

Some crazy statistics 

World Population

• 6.8 billion¹

World Hunger

• 925 million people do not have enough to eat — more than the populations of USA, Canada and the European Union combined.²

• 98% of the world's undernourished people live in developing countries.²

• Two-thirds of the world's hungry live in just 7 countries: Bangladesh, China, the Democratic Republic of the Congo, Ethiopia, India, Indonesia and Pakistan.²
• Where is hunger the worst?
  • Asia and the Pacific: 578 million³
  • Sub-Saharan Africa: 239 million³
  • Latin America and the Caribbean: 53 million³
  • Near East and North Africa: 37 million³
  • Developed countries: 19 million³

  • Women and Children

    • 60 percent of the world's hungry are women.⁴
    • 50 percent of pregnant women in developing countries lack proper maternal care, resulting in over 300,000 maternal deaths annually from childbirth.⁴
    • 1 out of 6 infants are born with a low birth weight in developing countries.⁵
    • A third of all childhood death in sub-Saharan Africa is caused by hunger.⁶
    • Every five seconds, a child dies from hunger-related diseases.⁶
    
    
    
    
    
    Basically....this ^ is my calling for this season in my life....
    I'll be training, researching and praying - to equip myself to get to the root of these problems. 
    I can't wait to see where God takes me with all this...I'll be praying dillegently this semester for answers on where the Lord plans to put me after school. There are a lot of options, and part of my heart feels that the Lord may be asking me to lay Haiti down for a bit and walk in a new path....Its a scarry.... and exciting feeling at the same time. I'm reminded more often lately of the verse in Proverbs:
    
    

    "In his heart a man plans his course, but the            LORD determines his steps." Be in prayer with me about God's heart for the world...and His heart for this season in my life. Lots of love <3 Thank you all so much again for all the support you've given and continue to give.

Lose your life, just so you can find it.

Since late June I had been feeling a prompt to "be on the move" again. Naturally, my first reaction was to look at plane flights to Haiti....but, naturally, God had His own plans for what this meant. As He began to unfold a rhythm of events to me, it became so clear what my next step was. But the more clear it became, the more I could feel myself closing off to the whole idea of leaving again.
A room and car of my own, a mature job that paid well. A (almost perfect) boyfriend, friends and community surrounding me making me feel completely at home and rested. Nothing was missing. Why now? Why does God always seem to shake our world when we've finally seemed to slow it down.
So--- I came up with my own collective ideas of what "Go" could mean....Obviously, I was quickly put back in my place, when God, not so very gently, confirmed what I already knew.
"When I ask you to Go, I have already laid out the path. Where you will eat, where you will sleep, Who you will know, and how you will go."
I'm a little emotional writing this now, because I'm thinking about how mighty and awesome out God is.
It all boiled down to last Wednesday when I got into a car accident for the second time this year. I was feeling defeated when I found out the cost of my car and the damage it had done to my "financial and social" situation. I had raised about 2 hundred dollars of support by this time and need over 4 thousand. My spirit gave up as the realty of what the Lord was asking me to do this time around was coming true.
"Sell all your possessions and give to those in need..... “Anyone who loves their father or mother more than me is not worthy of me; anyone who loves their son or daughter more than me is not worthy of me. ³⁸ Whoever does not take up their cross and follow me is not worthy of me. ³⁹ Whoever finds their life will lose it, and whoever loses their life for my sake will find it." Matt 10


Why would God ask us to "lose our lives".....just to find them again?


I think that this is why...
He doesn't pick us for our strengths, He picks those who are willing because of our weaknesses. When I think back on the people in the bible, the missionaries I know now, and even myself. I realize that most of those people were--- or are unfit for the task they always say their "called to." If we were experts, or if it was easy. It wouldn't require ALL of our being. It wouldn't be me, giving "it all"...."losing my life." Its a hard and narrow journey so that we can willing hold His hand every step of the way....So that HIS glory will be shown more evidently. 
In the past, I suppose it was a bit easier to leave life at home behind "for the sake of the Lord" --Because it was an adventure, and based on some of the life choices I had made just prior I knew God was separating me for a time. 
But its a tougher pill to swallow when you realize the people God was asking to "leave EVERYTHING behind and follow me"....is you. 


I am so blessed with so many examples of how this works. It really puts into perspective what all of our individual callings are. As they all look so different.


 As we read in Romans, the potter will make the clay for the purpose he has designed. And who are we, to ask the maker "why have you made me ordinary" or "why have you placed me here?" ---Does not the potter (maker) have the right to say what his creation was made for? Romans 9


All of this was to tell you....I had given up. But you, as the body of Christ, picked me back up and encouraged me in the way I should go. I woke up the following Friday after my accident with 200 dollars of support, and went to sleep that night after a very humbling day, with $1,000 dollars of support.


Thank you.

Support Letter

"The creation waits in eager expectation for the sons of God to be revealed to them." Romans 8:19

I wish I had more than words on my annual support/ update letters to offer you. The English language is so limited on creative words that are able to capture the emotion of the things we’ve experienced and been shown by God. To make children more than names, deaths more than statistics or heartache more than short stories that we as a culture have been so desensitized of.  It left me wondering how Jesus must have talked to the Father. How He would try to express His love for us or His passion for life. How then did he also speak to us? A culture of ignorant sinners programmed to follow the most popular mainstream at the time. Perhaps this is why we so often pray that the Lord will speak through us. Not only so that we speak truth but so the words that we say would speak straight through to the hearts of people and affect them in a way that creates change.

So that is my prayer writing to you now. That the words you read will start, or rekindle a flame of passion in you for the calling you have over your life. I want to see the body of Christ move in my generation in a radical way that shakes the world and scares the enemy.                                                     But I am no writer, so bare with me as I humbly express my heart.
To be honest, there was short few months when I moved back from Haiti where I thought my life would resume to some form a normalcy. (Or at least allow to me feel a sense of peace in my life at home.) But the more I forced this on my life, the more troubled and restless I became in my spirit. I felt the Holy Spirit creating a sense of urgency in my heart. The reality is; that peace is from God, but trying to find it in my own strength simply wasn’t going to happen. And the calling over my life is too great for me to give in to the selfish desires of my flesh. Finding the mission field of America is easy, but hard to stick with. Resentment and frustration is an easy crutch to lean on when you’re dealing with the self-pity and selfishness of your own culture. The need is all around me but pressing into it and recognizing the spiritual warfare behind everything is a rough battle. Shame on me for thinking I could do it alone. It was a self-righteous thought to think that the Lord was creating me to be a world changer on my own. I needed, and will always need the body. Where I am weak Christ gives me strength, but more often then not, this “strength” comes from another individual. A brother or sister in Christ, gentling reminding me that we are ALL the hands and feet of the Lord, and he created a community for us for the purpose of working together for his glory.
This past year I’ve been working in two very diverse missions; that of the typical work environment and then the passions of ministry work. As many of you know, I’ve been volunteering as an administrative assistant to RJI (Richmond Justice Initiative) an organization that works in the prevention and education of human trafficking (modern day slavery) in the United States. It’s been an incredibly emotionally draining journey so far, lots of work with little proof of change. But I know God has been doing a mighty work in Richmond through many people. And I’m very proud to report that through RJI the Lord moved the hearts of many government officials and VA went from being one of the top states for no recognition of this crime to a state with some of the strongest laws against it!                   

This fall I’m working as a “wireless consultant” at ntelos wireless company to pay the bills and taking an EMT (emergency medical training) class at night.

In January I’ll be moving to my next mission field. I’ll be going to back YWAM (Youth with a Mission) to attend a school called “Community Development for Missions.” The focus of this school is to gain medical, communication and diverse culture building skills. My hope is to apply what I’ll be learning this fall at my EMT class to the spiritual side of healing and community development. I’ve had a lot of conformation these past few months about this decision and it’s been really cool to see how the Lord is continuing to lead me in this direction. I’ll be continuing to work full time ministry while I’m still at home. This includes work with RJI and other various needs of families, schools and continuing to work with missions in Haiti. Including a brief trip back this fall to take supplies and visit with the orphanges once again. I want to thank you all, as always, for the prayers, support and love you have continued to give me in my missions work.

His request was simple “Love.” Love with words and with actions. (Matthew 25)
Your hands send my feet.

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